That time I decided to write a blog…
Hi there. I’m Carina.
Before you read any further, please know this: I am not a writer. I didn’t study writing and I never received distinctions for my writing abilities, so please don’t expect remarkable essays – that’s not what this blog is for. No, I’m not a writer, but I have been writing my entire life. My house is filled with old notebooks and diaries full of my thoughts, dreams, prayers, songs, and anything that was in my mind.
I was looking through all these books and thought: ‘Why not share them with the world? ´ I’m not a super-private person, and if you know me, you know that I wear my heart on my sleeve. I’ve done good things, I’ve done bad things, I’ve done exciting things, I’ve done stupid things, and I’ve made more mistakes than I could count. But everything that has happened in my life has played a part in my growth as a person, so why not share them?
My aim with this blog is just that – maybe my story and my thoughts could spread some hope. Maybe it could provide a bit of light/clarity on someone else’s journey? Honestly, if one person finds a bit of courage through reading this blog, that would be enough for me.
So here goes.
Who am I?
I’m a wife of a super-talented husband, a mother of a two beautiful children, a high-school drama teacher, a daughter, a sister, an aunt, and many other roles that keep on coming my way. I would love to tell you that I’m absolutely great at all of the roles I play in my life, but that would be a giant lie.
Most of the time, I fail… at everything. I’m not always the loving wife I should be, I’m not always the patient mother I wanted to be, and I drop a lot of balls at work. I fail a lot and I feel guilty about failing a lot.
But the most important thing about me is that I’m a Christian. I am an ordinary person serving and living for an extraordinary and amazing God. And I know that it’s okay not to be perfect, and it’s okay to make mistakes, and it’s okay to admit your weaknesses to others. Failing’s part of the journey.
The biggest lesson that I learned in my life so far is that I am a human being, not a human doing. And what’s most important at the end of the day is who we are, not what we do. Our actions should stem from who we are in our hearts.